Appalled by the red numbers on the screen, I quickly stashed the dastardly scale back in the bathroom closet. Gave that evil gizmo a big ole time out. Solitary confinement in the dark…take THAT you vile-inanimate-object. Harumph.
For the next couple of weeks, I suffered from flashbacks. Those red numbers were seared in my brain; they haunted me day in and day out. Feelings of depression and intense denial alternated.
It was really disconcerting to see how far off the path to healthy living I had wandered. Apparently, eating all the treats in Candy Land impacts your weight. Go figure.
Anyway (lazy segue), I called Lahey Clinic’s Medical Weight Loss Center on my birthday, as planned. Unfortunately, I did NOT plan for their first opening for the introductory session being mid-May. What a drag. All ready to start and another reason to delay it pops into view.
I know. I know. I can start independently. However, willpower and I parted company years ago. I knew it would likely only return under duress, when I became publicly accountable. But, I couldn’t wait any longer.
After my birthday, I started casually cutting back on my intake. I’m not doing anything dramatic or incredibly onerous. I just put fewer morsels in my mouth.
Don’t get me wrong, I still occasionally visit the high fat aisles of the grocery store. I just don’t “live” there anymore. But, it’s definitely a slow weaning process.
Divorcing myself from some of my fav food friends is very hard. It has been a rough breakup. I miss those oh-so-delicious treats a lot. And I really resent all the food commercials on TV taunting me in HD every day. Rubbing salt in my wounds. (Great. Now, I crave salt & vinegar potato chips. Wonderful.)
But, I’m here to report progress…some movement in the right direction. HOORAY!
Last Saturday, I weighed myself and discovered I’ve lost the equivalent of a little more than two 10 lb. bags of potatoes off my back. I would prefer it to be off my butt, but I’m not complaining. We’ll get there soon enough.
Net/net…I’m down 22.2 pounds. A solid start.
Let’s hope the downward trend continues. I will continue limping down the path to decent health and we’ll see what my status is at my comprehensive health exam appointment in mid-June.